Surrendering is the key to healing?
The reason why I am grateful that autism showed up in my family is that it’s badass.It says: “Let me show you the truth in a way that can’t be ignored.” “Let me show you who you’ve become and who you truly are”. And so it does. It keeps you up at night. This drives you to the point of exhaustion in a tsunami of spinning, screaming, meltdowns, tantrums, and physical reactions.
It ignores you and forces you to run like hell to avoid near-death situations. It eliminates small talk and puts you into a state of survival and fear for the future. Why? Because autism does not need your acceptance. It needs you to wake up. It needs your wisdom, remembrance, and awakening. You have to get to the point of absolute exhaustion in order to fully SURRENDER and change your life and the way you live it.
Personally, without a complete breakdown and full surrender, I would still be asleep, living in the city, dead inside, eating crap, and disconnecting from my truth, pain, and purpose. When I surrendered, moved, changed, and healed, autism stopped being loud. This could be the case for you too. The symptoms were messengers and when I listened, their job was done.
Autism doesn’t give a damn about rules, authorities nor how we normally behave. In fact, it’s here to burn that shit to the ground. It can’t stand medicine, supermarkets, toxins, loud noises, lies, and un-natural life indoors. It spins, holds its ears, checks out, and screams like we all would if we were equally honest and tuned in. It loves animals, nature, truth, unity, pure hearts, and honesty.
When you are around a person who embodies autism you have probably felt that pure energy and raw truth. No games, hidden agendas nor bullshit. Autism doesn’t appreciate it when we treat ourselves, our inner children, nature, and our soul badly.
Autism is the medicine and surrender is the key to healing. That’s what I think.
How about you?